Why always mutter in hindsight Those emotions bottled inside Need to be let out to manifest Coz there is no one to look within my chest

What I speak and what I do Is the only message going through And I don’t do justice to either of the two To my family, to a loved one To dreams and aspiration coming undone Because I appear to have forgotten

That Care, needs to be shown. That my dreams need me to grow That my Mother stands every night by the phone That my Sister wishes to play with me everyday How then do I think I have the time to foray In relationships, or Laziness, or any other stupidity that comes by way ?

This Maturity, or whatever heavy word you say To this feeling I cant hold anyone dear Coz when she leaves she’ll leave me in tears That I cant hold anything dear Coz when it shatters it’ll only bring despair I must not hold anything dear Except that which is truly mine My dreams my thoughts My family my time But no matter how many a time I rewind And remind myself im here to shine To be the sun that lights up my mother’s eyes

That my talent and my time must combine With my urge to leave this shit behind Rush to cross the damn finish line in time To reach the arms of those behind My Mother, those who are truly mine But oh Why, ohh why-y Is this bunch of my whines Coming to an end I cant decline That All the words to say have been said All the decisions to take have been made I know what do But im too damn afraid To end this poem now

Coz i no longer have a cloud To hide behind - In this mind This poems bought clarity Thats gonna cost me sleep But perhaps this’ll be the gravity That grounds me back to reality Because I cant stand losing one again you see Im a young man I cant stand losing her again you see Never loving again is the only way out of this catastrophe. Perhaps this’ll be the gravity That grounds me back to reality